I'm not sane today

Warning: I am irritable. In the following post I throw a fit like a small child and blow off some steam.

Today was a really rough day. Nick has some sort of issue with me, sleeping and eating. And I AM SICK OF IT!! For the last three weeks he's been a little shit. Yeah, I'm back to swearing but only in writing, not verbally. But for the last two days he's been really irritable and won't let me put him down or sleep or feed myself, or shower, or THINK! AND I HAPPEN TO HAVE A LOT OF BUILT UP FRUSTRATION THAT I AM LETTING OUT HERE RATHER THAN WITH THE KIDS!!!!

So. ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Feeling a little better.

How hard is it to open your mouth when someone is feeding you? FEEDING YOU! MOMMY IS DOING ALL THE WORK SO OPEN YOUR FREAKIN' LITTLE MOUTH! But noooooo. He purses his lips and spits food back at me into my face. I'm not joking. Into my face. And sleep? HA! What a joke.

Drugs don't seem to be working too well with him but they take the edge off. I don't see any teeth but I never did with Lucas either. If this goes on tonight I am taking him to the doctor because I can't live like this. And of course AJ is out of town for this whole episode, as usual. It's not his fault at all but I am still pissed. Pissed at the universe. I need SLEEP! SLEEP!

Lucas is an angel. Except that he is really tired, and throwing fits because he too isn't sleeping. So I thought that we needed to get out of the house and maybe everyone's dispositions would improve. We went to a local restaurant. Bad Idea. I won't go into the details but let's just say that the waiter was highly irritating. When you say you are going to refill my Diet Coke then do so. And do so promptly. A woman who shows up at an empty restaurant at 3:30 in the afternoon alone with two young children is there because she wants someone to take care of her.

So here is a tip Mr. Waiter: GET OFF YOUR ASS AND FILL MY GLASS UP!!!

MY GOD THIS IS SO NOT FAIR. Poor me.